Holy Cow

Now this is a long time between posts.
What can a girl say. I've not felt much like writing. The weight loss issues are there, being dealt with. I suppose the lack of writing or the lag time has everything to do with the timeline I'm dealing with to getting the band.
In January I called for an appointment. That didn't happen until February. In March I realized I needed to do 6 months of dieting under the doctor's supervision. In in month 3. Still fat, still not doing much to change my habits.
But I am going to therapy. Today was the 5th session since the end of March. There are some great connections to food and my relationship with it. Very complex---to very simple. Sometimes a cookie is just a cookie...but sometimes that cookie offers love, understanding, validation, consolation and care when there was no one else to give it to me.
Then there's that was then and this is now and the need to adjust how I let my past influence my present and my future. All in all, progress.

Maybe not on the scale, but in my head and that is measurable at least to me, and that makes me feel good.

I plan on using this blog for a photo journal of sorts too as I move forward in this journey. So hold on.